welcome to my happy place
a newsletter in which I journal about when & where I am happiest
structure: written on a sunny autumnal SF afternoon (5 October 2024, to be precise); published unedited
1 journal prompt: ”I am happiest when…”
10 lines minimum
0 editing, pure flow
a stream of consciousness on when & where I am happiest
I am happiest when I allow myself to love. I am happiest when I allow myself to feel. I am happiest when I allow myself to be. I am happiest when I allow myself to be me— all of me, including the “ugly” or messy bits. I am happiest when I am tender with the parts of myself that are still tender & in pain.
I am happiest when I am alone, in a beautiful, quiet, peaceful place to call my own. I am happiest in my own energy. when I get to soak up my love, my heart & my soul. when I get to rest. when there is nowhere to be & no one else to be with. I am happiest when I am showing myself love of the kind that only I can give.
I am happiest when I am operating from a place of razor-sharp clarity & discernment. I am happiest when my yes is a fuck yes & my no is a clean no to anything that doesn’t feel like this. I am happiest when I am living in flow. I am happiest when I am flowing from place to place & moment to moment. I am happiest when I embody aliveness & joy. I am happiest when my inner child can come out to play & be held. I am happiest when I am safe to be vulnerable. I am happiest when the entirety of my being is welcomed & met with love.
I am happiest when I am & feel taken care of. I am happiest when responsibility for taking care of me is taken off my shoulders. I am happiest when I can focus on being me instead. I am happiest when I feel loved by people I love for who I am. I am happiest when I feel appreciated by people I appreciate for who I am. I am happiest when I feel seen, held, and known. I am happiest when I feel wanted for & in my wholeness. I am happiest when my relationships easily, effortlessly & joyfully embody reciprocity.
I am happiest when I receive what I give. I am happiest when the depth & breadth of my capacity to love is mirrored. I am happiest when I am surrounded by people who are passionate, driven, loving, courageous & adventurous. I am happiest when I get to channel & embrace my adventurous spirit. I am happiest when dancing to music that fills the overflowing cup of my soul.
I am happiest when I am doing things that “don’t make sense” but feel right. I am happiest when I am compelled into action of the sweetest & most powerful kind. I am happiest when I get to enjoy my power and wield it as a force of nature & force for love. I am happiest when I get to embrace my inner artist & embody my inner muse at the same time.
I am happiest in wide open spaces, places of natural beauty & wonder, with the wind in my hair. I am happiest when partaking in multi-sensory sensual delights. I am happiest when making cat noises, or moaning softly, or laughing. I am happiest when I am excited & inspired by people I love. I am happiest when I feel as if I am able to engender the change I want to see in the world by teaching with the clarity of my example.
I am happiest when walking through places that make me feel at home. I am happiest when my inner slut or provocateur has space (and permission!) to play & roam. I am happiest when I feel as if it is safe & allowed to love without limits. I am happiest when I am (and embody!) my own permission slip.
I am happiest when I surrender to the flow of the Universe. I am happiest when I trust in a force that is stronger, greater & more powerful than I will ever be, to guide me & orchestrate everything. I am happiest when I don’t have to be the strongest, toughest, cleverest, most beautiful or most brilliant person in the room. I am happiest when I am allowed (and allow myself) to be weak, flawed, fallible, human, and majestic with it.
I am happiest when I give myself space to breathe. I am happiest when I’m
when I said this was unedited, I meant it