I could quiver for you
right now
in your arms.
I think quiver is the right word
because a part of me
is shaking.
And if I breathed into the sensation enough
all of me would shake.
All of me would break open.
But I don’t want to do that
for you
right now.
So I don’t.
So I won’t.
Less is always more.
That’s what I learned.
Am I right?
Am I a good girl, yet?
Less was always more when I starved myself, too. Less was always more when I was “sick”. Because less made me less… and you wanted that, didn’t you? No… of course you didn’t. You were just afraid.
I understand your fear, but I will not entertain it.
I don’t want to play with it, let alone placate it.
I have done nothing wrong.
I am doing nothing wrong.
I can stand in that.
So I am free.
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