Me, coaching myself, in front of you (#1)

Because this is what I want to be able to do.

I’ve been thinking of hiring someone to help me with my Substack, but it doesn’t feel right.

I can’t explain why, and it doesn’t.

I’m struggling with this.

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Things I notice:

1. I really don’t want to tell you this

2. I feel immensely self-critical

3. I’m frustrated with myself for even writing this [so far]

4. I’m critiquing the way I’m talking about this— framing this as “I’m frustrated” feels like I’m identifying too much with my emotions (and possibly making myself too vulnerable?), but “I feel frustrated” is flat & insipid. Like—yes, and. Speak properly

5. It’s a challenging for me to write & share something that is so imperfect, messy and PERSONAL

6. I don’t want to have to explain myself, and I worry that talking about this will somehow require me to

7. I feel angry with myself for even writing this, like wtf am I doing? (Se…