Love Is The Answer. Was This Ever In Question?
I’m writing late at night, or early in the morning, in the hours between midnight and dawn. A period of rejuvenation, before the awakening…
I’m writing late at night, or early in the morning, in the hours between midnight and dawn. A period of rejuvenation, before the awakening, world re-accosted by the cold light of day.
I should be asleep.
It’s another day, night, morning like any other. I should be asleep, but I’m not. I should be a lot of things that I’m not.
But I’m not those things, and even if I were consciously wanting or trying to become those things, me beating myself up about not being them wouldn’t change anything.
So, I’ve decided to stop.
I am who I am. You are who you are. We live how we live.
This is it. This is all we have. It’s up to us to make the best of it.
Love is the answer.
More love, not less. Give and you shall get.
It’s too banal to be true.
But what is the question?
Love, too.
Why was it ever in question?
Why did you question your ability to love and be loved? Why did you withhold it from yourself?
How could you treat yourself like this? What made you believe you deserved it?
And, most importantly, what made you believe that you didn’t?
Deserve it, I mean.
Deserve love. Deserve to feel it and be treated with. Love, love, love emanating. Wordless, vengeful, broken poetry.
The language of the body: seen but not heard. Lacking.
Why did you define yourself by your deficit? Did you think you could hate yourself into a version more ‘acceptable’?
Hate inhibits and constrains; it’s a useful scapegoat. More than that, however, hate is corrosive. Hate gnaws at you and detracts from who or what you really are. Hate destroys everything in its path.
But what is ‘real’, anyway?
How do we know who we are?
There is no single answer — only possibility.
With love comes fear comes freedom. With love comes birth and death and redemption. With love comes pain and joy and connection. With love comes a mind, body and soul that is truly present. With love comes nourishment, protection, safety and stability; a home from home, a place to grow, a little voice that says, “I will not let you fall”.
The simple things: “I believe in you.”
A smile that reaches your eyes, and stays there.
A quiet faith.
A hardening, a softening, an opening.
Change, and its embodiment, unveiling.
With love, we are limitless.
With love comes wholeness.
It was all that was missing.
Just love, compassion, and forgiveness.
It was all and it is everything.
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Thank you for listening.