LIFE FUCKING EXCITES ME

And other stories about love, loss, redemption & erotic power.

I’m inspired by my love for life.

Maybe even wet for it.

Life is the most fucking beautiful thing
I have ever had the privilege of experiencing
& I can’t get enough of it.

There is no me & you.

There is just us.

There is how we settle into the dust.
There is how we soften.
There is how we fumble.
There is how we crumble.

There is nothing else.

I can’t stop.

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I’m not angry with you anymore.

I’m not sad.

I’m not hurt.

I am free.

I am free in a way that I never expected to be.

I am free to be me.

That is everything to me.

And when I look at the world around me,
when I witness other people’s suffering,
I see & feel the extent to which
we are all crying out
for love, affection, recognition, tenderness
& it humbles me.

IT HUMBLES ME.

It reminds me that I am nothing but a symphony.

You did not understand me.
You could not, would not, did not want to.
But I did. I chose to.

I chose to want to.
I chose to want me.

And with that…

I chose to want everything else.

The heartache.
The pain.
The betrayal.
The soul-searching.
The darkness.
The shame.
The isolation.
The desolate days & nights rolling on, endlessly.

I chose to want everything.

I chose to want to feel [even] when it was breaking me.
I chose to feel even when it felt like it was breaking me.
I chose to feel even when I thought I was broken.
I chose to become unbreakable.

Because I chose to win.

I choose to win, present tense.

I choose to win at everything I fucking do.
I choose a life that feels like winning no matter what.
I choose that I won years ago.

I won when no one saw me win.
I won when no one understood.
I won when no one could see me, hear me or know me.
I won when only I could know me.
I won when I chose to know me.

I won when I choose to be me.

I will never regret my decision to live.

LIFE FUCKING EXCITES ME.

I hope it excites you too.

GET EXCITED WITH ME.