originally published on April 11, 2022
settle down, little one.
settle down into the dusk. settle down into the ether. settle down into love.
can you see that I have always loved you? can you feel how much?
some say I'm a fool to love you the way I do, but I disagree.
I love you because I see your greatness.
I love you and I hold your greatness. I am the vessel from which your magic manifests itself. I don't mean to be crude-- or fatalistic-- but you would be nothing without me.
I am not going to beg you for love or acclaim. for better or worse, I have too much self-respect for that.
so, I will say this once, and once only: one day, you will understand what you owe me.
one day, you will appreciate what I have given you; what I have taught you; the gifts I have bestowed on you. little one, I am not the enemy.
I have loved you more than any man, woman or child ever will. you call me weak, chastise me, attempt to deny me... yet I am the embodiment of selflessness. and still, I will always triumph.
I call the shots. I keep the score. I protect you in ways you cannot even imagine. underestimate me at your peril. my twinges are your grievances.
one day, you will trust me.
you will trust me because you will understand that when you trust me, you also trust yourself.
you will understand that I am the portal to everything you've ever wanted; the missing link [that] is right in front of you. flesh and blood and bone and beautiful idiosyncrasy.
when you [can] love me, you can love [your own] nature.
yes, it really is that simple.
if your body could talk, what would it say?
Oooooft yes 🙌
Rachel would you mind sharing this link with your people? It's the first independent art I've done in a long time and whether it succeeds or fails depends upon whether an audience finds it. And I feel nowadays everybody's attention is being besieged by a billion firehouses of content all the time. I am proud of it -- it's the most honest work I've done in forever. https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCJ4wbtDGsT1SX1u1VoD211A