I would like to enter smutty era but I'm scared.

I wrote this while masturbating. Hi Mom.

When you break rules, you create new paradigms.

That’s the first bit.
That’s the first thing.

The second bit is that no explanation is required.

You know what I’m referring to.
That’s the point.

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my skin
glistens for you
we do what lovers do
I feel no
awkwardness around you
these words are
tentative, sweet, glorious, settling

I see through you,
& that’s the first thing.
I see through all of us.
I see through me & my silly little yearnings.
I love it.

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he wants to be free 
& he feels free with me 
& that means everything to me.

your jealousy is confusing for me.

I’m torn between
taking care of me & taking care of your feelings

I’m torn between
taking care of us & taking care of you
& I want to get a look-in too

I want you to see me.

I feel like you can’t see me.