"I loved you because you let me see your innocence."
A 10-word love letter.
RACHEL CLIFTON (being sexy is being powerful) ⚡️@rachelclif
a 10-word love letter:
“I loved you because you let me see your innocence”
11:18 PM · Mar 26, 2023
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RACHEL CLIFTON (being sexy is being powerful) ⚡️@rachelclif
... and when you let me see your innocence, you let me see mine too. it was as if you bled innocence. and when I looked in your puppy dog eyes, I saw the ghost of my own inner child. I saw her. she knew.
11:18 PM · Mar 26, 2023
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RACHEL CLIFTON (being sexy is being powerful) ⚡️@rachelclif
she had always known [you]
11:18 PM · Mar 26, 2023
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RACHEL CLIFTON (being sexy is being powerful) ⚡️@rachelclif
I always saw your innocence, and I always knew it, too. I always knew you WERE innocent. that's why I couldn't stay angry with you.
11:27 PM · Mar 26, 2023
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RACHEL CLIFTON (being sexy is being powerful) ⚡️@rachelclif
it's also why I chose to stay with you, and why I chose not to betray you. I knew you needed my loyalty more than I needed yours. I wanted you to see what I saw.
11:27 PM · Mar 26, 2023
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RACHEL CLIFTON (being sexy is being powerful) ⚡️@rachelclif
I wanted you to see yourself as love.
11:29 PM · Mar 26, 2023
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RACHEL CLIFTON (being sexy is being powerful) ⚡️@rachelclif
I loved you the way I did because it taught me how to love in the way I want to. it wasn't you who tested me. I tested myself.
11:40 PM · Mar 26, 2023
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RACHEL CLIFTON (being sexy is being powerful) ⚡️@rachelclif
we were perfect mirrors. I see that now. I saw it then. because you also loved me too. you loved me in ways I couldn't love myself. you loved me in ways I didn't know how to.
11:40 PM · Mar 26, 2023
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RACHEL CLIFTON (being sexy is being powerful) ⚡️@rachelclif
I remember small moments of intimacy in the huge marble bathroom. I remember how you juxtaposed frustration with tenderness in everything you did, do, are. I remember how I felt your heart even when you were angry. I remember all the things I will never speak about publicly.
11:41 PM · Mar 26, 2023
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RACHEL CLIFTON (being sexy is being powerful) ⚡️@rachelclif
you made me feel beautiful even when I felt ugly. you made me feel wanted even when I didn't want myself. you made me feel desired even when I felt disgusting. in your own way: you also gave me an embodied experience of depth, presence & love.
11:45 PM · Mar 26, 2023
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RACHEL CLIFTON (being sexy is being powerful) ⚡️@rachelclif
I wanted you to love me differently, but your love was perfect. you wanted me to love you differently, but my love was perfect. you showed me what I really wanted & gave me what I really needed. best of all: I didn't need to know, ask or try.
11:54 PM · Mar 26, 2023
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RACHEL CLIFTON (being sexy is being powerful) ⚡️@rachelclif
pain is the price we pay for love. not because love is inherently painful, but because a part of me never wanted to leave your arms. it was as if we were in another world, and perhaps we were. I wanted the good parts of what we had to last forever. isn't that how everyone feels?
12:03 AM · Mar 27, 2023
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RACHEL CLIFTON (being sexy is being powerful) ⚡️@rachelclif
leaving you felt like leaving a part of myself. leaving you was a huge loss & so was losing you. loving you, I loved a part of myself that I’d never had access to before. I didn't want to let her go. loving you, I learned how to lose something & someone other than myself to love.
12:17 AM · Mar 27, 2023
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RACHEL CLIFTON (being sexy is being powerful) ⚡️@rachelclif
loving you always made sense to me. loving you was always easy for me. our love rarely challenged me. our circumstances did.
12:20 AM · Mar 27, 2023
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RACHEL CLIFTON (being sexy is being powerful) ⚡️@rachelclif
I trusted myself, I trusted you, and I was right to do both. it was risky, but it didn't feel like it; it didn't feel risky at all. it felt like natural order. I loved you because you trusted me enough to let me see you as innocent.
12:27 AM · Mar 27, 2023
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RACHEL CLIFTON (being sexy is being powerful) ⚡️@rachelclif
you showed me the beauty of innocence. and, with that, you showed me the beauty of the world.
12:28 AM · Mar 27, 2023
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Flirt with me (innocently).
Framing “it was risky, but didn’t feel like it…it felt like natural order.”
Resonating with all this deeply. I feel a lot of grief in it. And even more love.