there is a new man in my life.
he is kind, generous, loving & stable.
he makes things easy for me. he cares about my feelings. he is present for & with me.
I do not doubt his feelings or affection.
he makes me feel like I am easy to love, and that is precious for me.
that is really precious for me.
my life has been characterised by a series of unconventional relationships with unconventional people, by choice.
this excites me. this inspires me. this is the way I want to live my life. it gives so much to me.
and, and, and…
I long for safety. I have longed for safety.
I have longed for relational safety of the kind that allows me to be & feel held.
this deeply matters to me.
this deeply matters for me.
this is deeply impactful for me.
we walk each other home.
I want to love & be loved in a way that feels free.
I want to love & be loved in a way that allows me to be all of me.
if I have to choose between love or myself, I will choose myself.
but—and—of course, I want love, and of course, I want relationships. I just don’t believe that the two are mutually-exclusive.
I release the burden of shame.
I release the pain of stuckness.
I release the illusion of separation.
I allow myself to be me.
I allow myself to be met.
I allow myself to be loved.
I allow myself to be seen.
I dare to share— and live— my dreams.
I choose to soften.
and as I soften, I become able to be generous where it matters most.
I am generous with my heart.
I am generous with my time.
I am generous with my energy.
I am generous with my devotion.
I am generous in ways that feel generative for me.
I am generous in ways that light me up.
I am generous in ways that allow me to be & feel free.
and so, we come full circle.
I [can] love you as I love me.
stay loving. stay free.
This is beautiful!