Dear Diary: "My biggest lesson of today? Focus on what's right in front of you."
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I’m doing today’s post differently.
It’s a continuum. An extension. An opening. A poem.
A breath of fresh air.
Focus on what’s right in front of you.
Again & again & again.
my biggest lessons of today are as follows:
FOCUS ON WHAT’S RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOU
fuck me, I can make so much progress when that happens. when I do that. when I choose to do that. when I double down.
I am SO FUCKING PROUD OF MYSELF!
I am badass. I am resilient. I am bold.
I want to talk about [my] relentlessness.
I want to start interspersing personal stories here.
You have earned this.
You deserve this.
I appreciate you!
I want you to feel my appreciation of you[r presence] here.
THANK YOU FOR BEING PART OF MY WORLD
I am awesome. I love myself! I love myself so much! I am so loved! I am so celebrated! my heart is so warm.
I have the best people in my life— people I can truly be myself with. and everything falls into place naturally as I let myself soften.
LATE NIGHT THOUGHTS
I notice that night is a special time for me. everything feels so distinct, and alive, and beautiful, and CLEAR! everything feels so clear. I exult in it. I get my best ideas at night when I’m alone— just thinking, just being. at home. comforted. I am happy being myself here.
that feels precious.
I notice how good it feels to give myself this grace period. to be unflinching in what I want. to ask, and be met! to be clear. to EMBRACE MY RELENTLESSNESS.
I fucking love my relentlessness. I am so proud of this. I am so proud of her. she is incredible.
I AM GOING TO HAVE SO MUCH FUN OVER THE NEXT FEW MONTHS!
that’s what’s coming up for me now.
I’m bubbling over with glee. trips, experiences, integration… I’m bubbling over with HOW GOOD IT GETS TO BE. how good it gets to feel. what gets to be possible for me.
I am amazed & I am humbled.
I am humbled & I am grateful.
I am grateful & I am clear.
I KNOW I have worked hard for this. I KNOW I am deserving.
right place, right time— always.
I’m ready in a new way.
ON DISCERNMENT
I LOVE MY DISCERNMENT.
I love how easy it feels to share here.
I love how open I feel.
I love how safe I feel.
I love that I feel no need to share specific details… and that it also doesn’t feel like I’m hiding or withholding anything.
I love being able to hold it all.
SNIPPETS FROM ANOTHER TIME…
we compartmentalize when we feel unsafe.
compartmentalizing is an effective survival mechanism. it's also (invariably) a blunt instrument.
why?
it doesn't teach us a more valuable tool: discernment.
instead, it teaches us [how] to shut ourselves & other people down.
@ReneeSolana @louis02x discernment is 🔑
it's how we learn to hear ourselves, love ourselves & show up for ourselves as if we are on our own sides
... aka trust ourselves (& The Universe) deeply 🌹
THE MAGICAL MYSTERY TOUR CONTINUES…
I love the magic of Life.
I love treating it as a puzzle.
I’m obsessed with hacking myself.
I’m obsessed with hacking this.
and when I find it, and when I feel it… I feel infinite. one step at a time. one foot in front of the other.
IT’S ALL HERE. it’s all here.
I see it now.
I see THIS now.
I see this in ways I couldn’t—didn’t— see before.
I see this in ways I wasn’t ABLE to before.
I see this in ways that fear hid me from.
and I am so fucking proud of myself.
I am so fucking proud of myself.
over & over & over again.
What do you want to see more of?
And… what’s right in front of you?
Tell me.
I want to hear you.