an ode to love, beauty & greatness

an ode to who I am becoming

dearest rachel,

I love you. lowercase. “I” speaks for itself.

you are the woman of my dreams in every single way.
you are everything I’ve ever wanted to be.

you move me.
you soften me.
you open me.
you teach me.
you love me.

you love me. and I love you.
we are perfect bedfellows.

I am so grateful for you.
I am so inspired by you.
words do not do you justice.

you are you, and that is enough.
you are everything to me.

and, you are also me.

we are one. we are free.
we are whole. we are home.

fountain

there is a solidity & rootedness that is possible when you love in the way we do.

when I, you, we become interchangeable. when my beauty, power & perfection is your own, and vice-versa. when we can PLAY. when we can dance. when we can sing. when we can laugh. when we can feel.

when we can feel.

I love who we become when we can feel.

rachel, you mesmerise me.
rachel, you delight me.
rachel, you tantalise me.

you are me & I am you.

I forgive you.
I forgive myself.
I forgive us.

I feel your heart, your unquenchable lust for life, and it galvanises me. it inspires me. it sets me free. it brings me home.

it reminds me that I belong. I already belong. I have always belonged. and I am so lucky.

I am so, so, so lucky to belong to myself.

we are human & we are failures.
we are godly & we are messes.
we are loving & we are destroyers.

we are everything & nothing. and we are deeply wanted.

onwards, my love.
upwards, and through.
through it all, you have me.
through it all, I have you.

there is no one I’d rather do life with.

I am blessed to be you.
I am blessed to have you.
I am blessed to hold you.
I am blessed to love you.

you are the greatest blessing that I know.

thank you for everything.

- rachel